Happy belated birthday to me happy belated birthday to me! Happy belated birthday to meeeee! Happy belated birthday to me! *random confetti bursts into the air*

Yup I turned 15 on July 28 =)

... =( I'm an old lady now.

In other random news... during summer school someone wrote "I love Ipods!" on the board. Of course their handwriting was barely legitimate and from where I sat it clearly looked like it read "I love Ipoos!" which in a silly kindergarten sort of way I found hilarious... heehee... Ipoo... it sounds like I... and poo... XD. Anyone who still insists on calling me mature seriously needs to get their heads checked.

"Wait, but!" "Butt?! Don't you bring butts into this... sicko." 

"OMG... now we add a... *overly feminine flamboyant voice* shtar! (star) Ohhhhhhhhhhh what color what color? Pretty pink! *clicks button and makes the star pink* OMG purdy! HEEHEE! *makes spasmodic hand gestures*"(you have to realize that this is being spoken by a middle aged partially bald man in a suit XD)

My summer school teacher gives odd responses... XD summer school ends on my birthday =) (July 28th). The only reason I'm taking summer school is because my parents want to give me something to do -_-; they enrolled me in an English class (advanced honors level... what the crap o_O... I'm surrounded by freakin genii ;_; ) and a math class (level 4-ish I think... it's said to "ready the students for the paroles of next year" ... gee... that sounds positive). So anyways that's basically the main reason why I'm not free during the weekdays. Ugh. Oh well. At least all this crap gives me credits. Even though I don't need them... they look good and stuff right? -.-;

I've been sounding overly moronic lately. Mostly because that stupid English class is seeping me of any brain power present in my head. Also I introduced myself by telling everyone the book I read recently was Slaughterhouse 49 by Kurt Vonnegut. Of course no one knew what the book was (which is kinda sad...) and instantly misinterpreted my general attitude XD whatever. I'm always the weirdo =P

I honestly think schools should sponsor "thinking" classes. And by thinking I do not mean sitting there like a lump on a log for 70 minutes constantly going "Hmmmmmmm...". Now naturally everyone thinks in their own way but seriously... some people need help.

"I swear to god the alphabet is 15 letters long!"

"Isn't ghost spelled like g-o-s-t?"

"An exclamation point is like an angry question mark right?"

"8+8 is 17!"

"Well I'm better and smarter cuz I have prettier nails."

"I'm proud of being materialistic (after just learning the meaning of this word)!"

"Well she's ugly so she's probably kinda stupid too."

o_o *blank stare* Well gee here I was thinking we had all passed the second grade. Now the above quotes would have been perfectly acceptable had they been said in a mocking fashion. But they weren't. And that makes me sad. There should be a place where you learn that being friendly and respectful is a good thing. That smoking and drugs is not "way cool" it's "way fucking moronic". That you can't live by stereotypes and cliques. That the TV is not a good source for music (it may by chance have good music on it but this is rare). That it is actually possible to love two contradicting things. That doing this or that does not make you any more or any less "manly" and it doesn't make you "gay" or "a wuss" (Look here mister fucking manly. It's very simple. If you have a penis you are male. Very male actually. Unless your penis magically transforms into a vagina during the witching hour you are still as male as you're ever going to get.).  That gay only has two meanings. That you should attempt to be more original and that hard work really isn't that evil of a thing. There's a ton of other shit too. I think the main reason we don't have thinking classes is because this is all supposed to be common sense. Perhaps attempting to pound such ideas into a stubborn persons mind would never work. People are eventually supposed to get advice or "mature" but a grand lot don't. Maybe we could make thinking classes for specific people o.O it's almost similar to the sped program (except the sped kids actually have disorders and may indeed still have a chance of being vastly intelligent). I don't want to get all nitpicky on where you place your commas or how you complete your algebra problems and things like that. I'm not talking about school work or grades I'm talking about (as I've already stated) common sense. Everyone is allowed their own opinion but I think there should be some ground rules. For instance there are some girls who currently have boyfriends. They allow these loving boyfriends to call them "beautiful cunts" or "my bitch". They think this is normal. Now if I ever heard a guy call me such names I would chop his penile member off slit his throat with a rusty knife and nail what’s left to a splintered board. Also there are others out there who learn things such as "God hates fags" or "American/European/Middle Eastern people are all idiots/evil." or "*insert race* is better or worse than *insert race*.". These people can't help the family their born into after all. So surely we should be allowed to help them? Or at least try? You should be allowed your own thoughts but you should never feel the need to absolutely hate or kill a certain group of people. We all have our faults but we shouldn't be worsening them with such old ignorant mindsets.

Also I think everyone should know the basics. Don’t have perfect grammar? Having some issues with math? Don’t remember every little prominent event from a certain time period? Perfectly acceptable. Didn’t recite the alphabet in order? Haven’t quite mastered addition? Have no clue where the Middle East is? Not so acceptable. Mistakes are bound to happen. And they will make you look silly. That is of course understandable because nobodies perfect. But you really don’t want to be caught stuttering at a job interview because you forgot what the next month was and accidentally said November instead of June. That’s just sad. Really really really sad.

On an ending note: Being all around ignorant will only save you from one thing. Zombies attempting to eat your brains (or lack thereof).

"OH MY GUH XANGA ENTRY WTFLOL!?!?!11"

Why hello my fellow freaks and geeks =) (I'm trying to think of a word that is a combination of freak and geek... XD I just keep getting Greek though, and that would probably end up sounding racist... oh wait! Feak! Righhhht.). I don't really know what to write about so let me think of a random topic. Oh! I gots one!

I've decided to let my hatred for dresses/skirts go. I figure that skirts don't technically even have to be feminine, girly, or even formal. After all you could get away with wearing a long green medieval dress with hooks on it correct? (After getting some odd looks of course). There are the girly pink/formal/short/slutware skirts that I despise with all my heart. You could just wear a long skirt or a medium length skirt with a pair of pants and there wouldn't be anything wrong with that =/. It's just that I've decided that I hate (hate) shopping so I might just end up making my own clothes with my own artistic designs on them. For a couple reasons.

1. As I stated I hate shopping o_o

2. Fabric is a lot cheaper than a freakin $20+ pair of pants/t-shirt -_- (everything in my size costs more... more fabric XD. Not that it would make a difference. My brother bought a pair of jeans that was $100... what the fuck. I only spend money like that on videogames @_@).

3. I'm experimenting with stenciling/printing with ink and acrylic paint

4. Self-made artistic designs are nifty =P I can make a misshapen bwob man t-shirt XD or a bah-nah-nah t-shirt! =) People will finally know I'm a weirdo without having to know me that well.

5. BECAUSE MAINSTREAM SHOPPING STORES ARE SATIN! (XD did I mention I hate shopping?)

6. I'm big (plus size yay) so therefore clothing stores apparently think that I should either dress like a grandma, a mother, or a pregnant woman. o_O... am I the only one incredibly disturbed by this?

I've heard of construction workers and truck drivers sewing their own clothes >D so I've let the whole girly factor go. Also I've seen dudes in skirts. =)

There’s generally a reason why I always wear the same thing -_- but whenever anything rips (which it does quite quickly actually) I have to go shopping for over four freakin hours just to find one hoodie thing and maybe a pair of jeans. I don't care about clothing! I don't want to spend an entire day looking for shit ;_; and not that much shit either. I've literally spent the entire school year wearing two hoodies and two pairs of jeans o_o they rip and shrink and generally don't make it comfy to run around after a while (and for some odd reason they get itchy after a while). Mostly I just want to make my own clothes because it's cheaper and I don't have to go shopping =\ plus I can put whatever the hell I want on my stuff (instead of hearts and flowers and stupid quotes "Latin boys are hot!" "I <3 dancing!".... *shudders* the horror!). So if you want I could make you a t-shirt with a weird print/ a drawing of yours on it. I must make a bwob man design *cackles evilly* and a bah-nah-nah cyoob design. And a mahnpurse design 8D muahahaha! Fish? 

blank t-shirt+ paint+paper= maximum of $6

plus size clothing= minimum of $20

I won't have anything to do in the summer so I'll start making crap around that time.

For all of you who are worried... no I am not passing over onto the other side. I just enjoy cheap clothing that looks weird and actually fits =)

On another side of news I've decided to construct a mahnpurse made out of ramen noodes packages XD (not the cup part... that... other paper part). Plus I might actually upload some images onto deviantart soon.

- Summer is a month away! You can make it!

(note: I ended up just posting the dumb unedited version of the story on deviantart)

BAH-NAH-NAH

I swear the lot of you have forgotten how to update or something o_o I've been on all my journals and the majority of people I know haven't updated in months. Well anyways that's not the point of this post. The point is to say that I'm a bit annoyed, for several reasons actually. One being that I think people whine and complain way too much for their own god damn good. I can understand if something tragic actually happened. But I think it's idiotic to gripe about normal life problems to people who don't want to hear the same thing over and over. Actually I can even take griping, hell I gripe, but I don't go on angsty trips telling people how depressed and angry I am every time I see them. Seriously other people have it way worse than you'd probably ever have it. It pisses me off because I've gone through worse and you don't see me complaining! You think I'm happy all the time? Hell no. I'm probably one of the most angsty teenagers out there. But you don't know this. And you know why? Because I don't complain and whine about it every other frikin second! This is all very ironic since technically I am complaining but I think I have a good reason for it. I focus on happier things and I don't ruin peoples days with my random everyday crap. I deal with my problems rather than just complain. I think this will be the only post you'll ever hear me rant about my own personal life actually. People complain about things such as

- parents not being fair

- not getting perfect grades

- not having a boyfriend/girlfriend

- not having things you want

- getting in trouble for minor things

This is all gripe worthy material I must admit. But it is not "OMG I AM SO DEPRESSED! I HAVE THE MOST WORST LIFE EVER AND I HATE MY PARENTS! WTF. MY LIFE TOTALLY SUCKS!" material alright. How about being told you're worthless as a daughter because you don't "act like a proper female". How about being told you're truly stupid and that you probably don't stand a chance. How about being called ugly on every occasion possible and being told that you should be ashamed of the way you look. How about being told that you don't have a drop of talent and it doesn't matter what anyone tells you that you're just a failure. Maybe you'd enjoy people stereotyping your way of life. Or perhaps you'd be fine with parents who are obviously and blatantly against your own views, and who refuse to take a different look at things. There are plenty of other things which I would rather not put up.

The point of the matter is that you hardly ever hear me complain about such things. According to how things are now a days I should be moaning in agony and slitting my wrists! But I'm not o_O and the idea of doing such a thing totally contradicts my personality. I'm usually happy, hyper, or bored (when the sugar hits a low). Most of my friends don't see me as an incredibly serious stern person. Or as someone who is constantly depressed. So why is it that people who have minor problems always have to exaggerate them? You don't have to act a certain way just because something’s happened. That only makes it worse! If you truly are down in the dumps do something to make yourself feel better don't groan about it for hours. Once again there are exceptions and there's nothing wrong with a complaint now and then (I don't think I know anyone who doesn't complain). But you shouldn't go around claiming you have an incredibly sucky life just because something which is most likely to pass anyways happened. If it’s giving you so many problems try to vent in different ways! I think I've only grown sick of it because I feel I have it worse sometimes even though I know there are people out there dying and starving. That tends to make me feel guilty. After I've reveled over all this I tend to get even more ticked off at people who have it damn well off and who still complain. One more thing.

Stop with the god damn angst poems! Unless you're willing to divert your writing skills chances are people will not appreciate or sympathize with your "dark soul clenching" problems. Angst poems might have been alright at some point in time but now their just... ugh... just don't write them. Write something happy! I don't know. Just don't write angst unless you're a professional writer.